Extreme Emotion

I can think of one situation when I have felt an extreme emotion. Actually it was like all the emotions at once and all were to the extremes. Through high school I grew very close to one of my teachers her name is Connie Manuel. I loved learning from her and hearing her life stories. In 2003 she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. She fought harder than anyone I know ever could. She beat it three times. I was there for her all four years in high school and it drew us even closer. She is my inspiration and thinking of her makes me dream even bigger. This past month I found out she was diagnosed again with cancer. I have never felt so upset in my life that someone so loving, giving, inspirational and deserving gets stuck with this cancer. Anger was my only emotion why why did this have to happen again and to all people her. She had gone through all of these treatments that are available and her body is basically trashed by the chemicals and can’t take any more. Confused I just don’t understand why they can’t do anything for her. Why is nothing working. After being mad and confused my only emotion left is pain and sorrow. My teacher my best friend my inspiration she is leaving me. How selfish right all I can think about is massing her. She has finally given up and is ready to rest. A woman who has fought all her life is finally backing down. Now she lays in her home in hospice. I think about her every night when I go to pray for her and all I can do is cry. Day after day they say this will be her last day but for some reason I feel she is still fighting inside. I have never felt such extreme emotions form being so angry and confused to being too sad and depressed. When she passes on and makes her way to heaven I think I will have the extreme emotion of happiness that she is finally relived and no longer feeling the physical or emotional pain.